Uuuuuuugggggghhhhhhh! That's really the only way I know how to describe my feelings right now.
Aside from the fact that I think I might actually be suffering from alcohol withdrawals.. I'm so annoyed. Lately everytime I get excited about something.. it turns out to be another pain in the ass. With work, friends, whatever. I get what I want and it turns out to be.. well, not what I wanted after all. What really pisses me off is that I don't know how I feel or why or what to do about it. I just wanna cruise by contently.. not too happy, not too sad.. just somewhere in the middle. The middle would be better than the current rollercoaster I'm on. I'd be okay with just "okay".