What did I decide today? God is like chocolate. The more you get, the more you want. Except too much God never makes you sick or fat. God is great :)
Today started out great. Actually, it started out with me waking up super late and barely making it to church on time.. but after that it was great. After church, I had mother's day lunch and spent time with the family. Since I got my new job I haven't seen them much and it was nice to just relax and hang out with them.
I feel really good about getting back into church. I've known for a while that it would be a good, positive change for me but I've definitely been slacking. It's amazing how much better I feel when I open up my heart completely and just let God take over. It seems like things just keep falling into place.. a very welcome change.
With everything falling into place, of course something would have to fall "out" of place. I thought I'd take a chance on someone that, against his efforts, has been on the back burner for a while. I've been on the fence about this, since I don't really have time for a relationship right now, but I decided to give it a chance. What's the worst that could happen, right? Well, he did exactly what I knew he was gonna do. He doubted everything and let his insecurity get in the way. Honestly, I think I'm better off. I'm not really upset about him not working out as a boyfriend, but I am sad that I've lost him as a friend. I knew it was coming though, so I guess I'm numb to it.
I'm really looking forward to this week. I don't know if I could possibly love my job more and I'm getting into a good routine. I even have less and less "mental breakdown" thoughts throughout the day. And now I have no relationship issues to deal with. Things can only keep getting better it seems :)